portalni optok
srijeda, 16.06.2010.
i <3 riku
1.
Dont treat others as you want to be treated. You might be a self destructing psycho bitch, and therefore want to be treated bad. Treat other beings good. Period.
2.
Once in a while stop and think about why you do what you do, what it causes you and other people, and if you maybe should do something different.
3.
Express yourself often. Meaning: sing, dance, scream, create, destroy, talk, think. Whatever it takes to get the energy out of your system. As long as it doesnt affect anyone else in a negative way.
4.
You dont need to love thy neighbour. But you dont have to be an asshole either. Help even bad people even if you dont want to, but only if it doesnt cause you (too much) pain and if it really helps the other person. Even if the other person wont appreciate it. You will get it back.
5.
Dont believe any god, religion, or any prophet blindly. Come to your own conclusions by living your own life. See it all merely as guidelines and pointers on the way, until you realize it all for yourself.
6.
If you actually do realize stuff about your life and your existance, dont try to get anyone else to think in the same way you do. Because its only your experience and not everyone can experience life in the same way as you can. Your truth doesnt necessary have to be someone elses.
7.
If you want to change people to what you believe is "the better", dont push them into anything or make them believe anything. Show them by making a good example.
8.
Cherrish the moments of pain just as much as you would the moments of love. Because all moments teach us something and it is better to learn from everything than to just learn from some things.
9.
Dont expect the best thing, nor the worst thing. Expect that something is going to happen and know that you will make the best out of it.
10.
Be barefoot. As much as you can. Naked too.
srijeda, 02.06.2010.
rijeka is so small
here i am for some complaining.
:D
when i wear something nice and walk trough town, people's lives stop. people jell, ping, shout compliments and what they would like to do to me, and with me. well, not people. men.
"heyy, you going to the beach? i wanna go to the beach with you!"
Who
tha fuck
are you?
"Oh, yeah? How would you like a hit on the head with my foot?"
-.-
i wonder...is it like that with all women?
is it like that only when they are alone? (since im often alone.)
is it because i am really pretty, or are men mindless sexually handicapped retarded dogs that never get laid?
or...
is Rijeka just too small, and yes, there i am too big of a fish there?
if that is the case, im sad.
ponedjeljak, 17.05.2010.
one being very unlikely, ten expecting it around every corner
a female person takes a 100 kn and goes to a mall to buy groceries for the whole week. before going to the food store, she checks every retail shop she likes, just to "see whats going on there, since she is already here". what happens next?
she spots a pair of beige ankle boots with a medium heel, that are 50 percent off.
she tries them on on the jeans shes wearing, and they fit perfectly. she walks around the store like a million-dollar-contract model, and they are comfortable. she puts on a dress from the store so she can try them on bare legs, and ho-hoou, all the groceries have no meaning whatsoever anymore, goes right to the counter and
buys herself a new pair of winter shoes on the doorstep of a summer season.
coming home in her new shoes, she doesnt feel regret that in the firdge there is:
cherry marmelade
a yoghurt
mustard
one paprika
on the shelf there is
a slice of bread from last monday
stale whole grain cookies
a lemon
because nothing tastes as good as skinny feels, and there is no better way to stay skinny if you have no money and no food in tha house. i work out twice a day and drink tea. i got very creative in making meals. ohh yes. its fun...
friday night ill wear one of my evening dresses on my new shoes.
soon enough more money will show up and ill have all i need for less creative meals :P
kisses hugs
oh, and....hy riku, welcome ;)
ponedjeljak, 03.05.2010.
proslo je 9 mjeseci i preko 150 postova
i opet sam na pocetku, al pametnija za 3 puta u prosjeku. a to je stvarno puno.
<3
I like apple pie
And you like banoffee
We both love shopping for furniture
And meeting for coffee
We pretend we're into art galleries
'Cause it makes us feel clever
We're both in our element when we're on our knees
Whatever the weather
I could be your fag hag
And you could be my gay
I'll never make you feel sad
When you come out to play
I could be your fag hag
And you could be my gay
I'll never make you feel sad
When you come out to play
We don't give a fuck
What people are thinking
I know you'll always look out for me
When we go out drinking
I can ask you things I can't ask anyone
And you'll give me direction
Apart from me, you're the only other person I know
Who reads the travel section
I could be your fag hag
And you could be my gay
I'll never make you feel sad
When you come out to play
subota, 01.05.2010.
psihjatrija -.-
moj imunološki sustav ne razaznaje sebe, ne kuži koga treba branit a koga napadat.
i sad se moram prat ujutro i navečer (!!!!!!!!) i uzimat neke minerale i bakterije da pomognu mom tijelu da shvati.
nemogu se zabijat, jest slatko ni začinjeno.
znate kako je to meni? koja volim pit i jest slatko i zacinjeno i perem se jednom u dva tjedna.
uopce ne pomaze ovoj zbrci u glavi koja se "moze rijesit samo tabletama". hoho, da nebi!
danas idem u crikvenicu, jedva e, jedva.
uzela sam svu zabavljacku festivalsku opremu da se ne potučem s nekim.
ionako sam vec sva plava.
ćao
utorak, 27.04.2010.
dismantle any part of your life that is out of integrity
smijem se
zabavljam se
slavim
gledam to s humoristične strane
bezuvjetno se podržavam i osvješćujem svoje potrebe
potpuno sam trijezna
unos je isključivo organski
samovanje
aktivnost
rekreacija
učenje
apstinencija;dijeta od kompa i javljanja
spava u hotelu kvarner a ja i pugi pijemo u hilu? boze. pugi i ja.
opet sam strejter hahahaha!
samo da je mezit
stavljam kamen na pećinu. pećinu! hahah
remi ahah
mi smo debili
prekidam s kompom al ostat cemo prijatelji
prekidam s mobitelom isto, al cemo se zakrvit malo
u šumi rastu gljive poslje kiše.
petak, 16.04.2010.
:/
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nedjelja, 11.04.2010.
riblja čorba
eksperiment:
odričem se:
slatkog
bijelog kruha
kave
alkohola
duhana
fast fooda
mlječnog
šta mislite šta je najteže? haha
(bijeli kruh....)
naci samo cjelovito vlaknasto bjelancevinasto vitaminsko mineralno. hvala
petak, 09.04.2010.
idealno djetinjstvo...
roditelji se odnosili prema meni kao da sam pametnija od njih, jer jesam
oni su se interesirali za mene i ono što ja volim, želim, trebam...
nikad mi nisu nametali svoje vrijednosti, ciljeve, brije...
poticali i hvalili su me svaki puta kad bi ucinila nesto dobro
kad bi pogrijesila objasnili su mi da je ok grijesiti jer se tako uci, da nemoram biti savsena i da nema veze
nikad nisu prosuđivali moje želje, ciljeve i htjenja: znali su da je to moj put u koji se oni ne mješaju na nijedan način osim da nude svoju bezuvjetnu ljubav, podršku i pomoć
pomogli su mi razviti osjećaj samovrijednosti i samopoštovanja
vrlo rano su mi objasnili da sam ja kreator svog života i da vrijede samo ona pravila koja ja priznajem
rano su me upisali na jogu i meditaciju da mi kičma bude ispravna, tijelo gipko a um bistar
isto tako sam išla na neki timski sport da mi se tijelo zdravo umara i razvija. neki ples ili gimnastiku.
često smo išli na putovanja na sve strane svijeta, u različite djelove svijeta, da sakupim što je više moguće iskustva
sudjelovala sam u brojnim kreativnim radionicama svih vrsta. divili bismo se zajedno svemu što sam stvorila.
upisali su me u waldorsku osnovnu školu, i dopustili mi da upišem likovnu srednju školu
its kinda hard to feel hopefull when youre allready 20.
